Everyone around me seems to be commiting suicide. My favorite people on the internet, and a few people I have interacted with online or in real life. It is scary, seeing a YouTuber like ParloGaming, trying to hang himself. When he says it's what he wants, it makes me geuniunely depressed inside. I have been living the best life, thanks to NG, but seeing people attempting MY acts. (slitting wrists, stabbing self, hanging attempts.). I don't want Parlo to leave. It reminds me to much of my dark side, Like Fliqpy or some anime character. My Dad abused me, I tried to die in many ways, including: jumping from high place, stabbing self, slitting wrists, cutting myself in many places and more. When put in a mental hospital, I bit my arm until it looked like some French bread that fell in the garbage truck. Edd Gould, LizzyWinkle, Parlo, George Floyed, xxTentacion, Etika, much more. All gone. I have a serious mental problem with waste and time. If I accidentally delete something, I feel like I lost so much time. I feel so bad, because I am so young. Since my reception years, I have had anxiety, depression and possibly PTSD. I'm not sure about that though. I am diagnosed with Anxiety and depression and take meds every day. I know what it's like to beg your loved ones that you want to be dead. If this is my last post, I had the best-horrible life possible. I love you all. I truly do. Sirtom, big inspiration. I want this to be kept up you dumb mods. Help me please. Don't call the police. I probably won't commit suicide. I am sorry for upsetting my very little fans. I really want to live to be who I want to be though. I want to live on a farm in Norway and want my career to be something video game related.
@PudgieDaFrog @NoobieGotHIT @Cyberdevil @DoctorStrongbad @Bobert-rob @JD11Music @TheMusicalManiac @Tomfulp. Thank you all. Very much so. Don't expect me to leave this world. Letting the world know my feelings truly helped. That's not everyone who helped me on NG. Much more. Everyone except @Peregrinus, but I forgive them. I still love you all. Thank you for making me realize my great life as quick as a short newspost. I am sorry for bad grammar and spelling, I need my feelings out. TYSM for reading and/or agreeing and accepting me, Jack(s)y as a person,lover and Newgrounder. Don't call authorites, you'll never find me. But FYI: I love you all, bastards, bitches, or not. Like my classic is, have a bloody awesome day c:
